Some nights, here alone in my house, the words I want to write flit about like moths at a bare bulb, and all I need do is reach my hand out and grab them.<\/p>\n
This is not one of those nights.<\/p>\n
I phone Nikola, wondering if he will be awake at two in the morning. He isn’t, or at least he doesn’t answer his phone, so I leave him a message.<\/p>\n
“I can’t focus tonight,” I say, “and when I can’t focus, I can’t write, so I should probably just go to bed. Don’t phone me back if you get this tonight. We can talk tomorrow.” I start to say goodbye, but then stop, and completely without thinking I add, “You’re missing me right now not wearing anything but a T-shirt and thigh-high socks. Call me tomorrow.”<\/p>\n
I hang up.<\/p>\n
I have no idea why I said that. It’s not even true. I’m wearing sweatpants and a bathrobe and my breath smells like garlic from the pasta I had for dinner and I haven’t washed my hair today.<\/p>\n
I think if Nikola were here right now though, I’d let him open my robe.<\/p>\n
After I brushed my teeth.<\/p>\n
Definitely after.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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